Hit emotional rock bottom on my birthday. I cried uncontrollably for 6 hours before passing out from exhaustion. Its strange though because accepting thats where I was turned the world upside down and being able to actually express that physically became cathartic. It reminded me that I'd been there before and, as before, I'd stand up again. ❤️ I very much appreciate all the love you showed me in that moment, even if it took me until after it had passed to be able to recognise it again. #cosofam
@lilyunsub Mine is on D day next month and I just had to ask google how old I was going to be. Yes, I am that old. Ack!
I'm sorry to hear you went through all this, and on a day that should be special and magickal too. Hugs to you and I hope that you can use it as an opportunity for growth and to make your life better overall.
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@lilyunsub
@lilyunsub 🤗 ❤️ That wasn't how I envisaged your day being when I posted before logging off to travel into London. So what is the action plan to stop the repeat next year? 😉
@Mandypar ideally to be around people and not having spent a few months without so much as a hug ❤️
@lilyunsub @Mandypar
I know it's no substitute for the real thing... But as @Minholkin , I'm a hugger in real life, and my friend at work asked me how I'd ever be able to go back to the way I was... Many men would run when I came around... ;)
@InvaderGzim @lilyunsub @Mandypar @Minholkin I’m not a hugger, but I’m going to start warning people, when a vaccine is available, I may be hugging people until it is uncomfortable.
@JGNWYRK @InvaderGzim @lilyunsub @Minholkin I'm not wild at being hugged besides it is not appropriate in a workplace as potentially could break lots of rules along the harassment side of things (so just be careful). These days I could just punish you for hugging me by running your feet over with my wheelchair in an "accident" 😜
@Mandypar @JGNWYRK @InvaderGzim @Minholkin I'll sign up for hugs
@Mandypar @JGNWYRK @lilyunsub @Minholkin
I already took that training at work back in the early 90s.
Prompted me to start using the terms hon, darlin’, etc for my guy friends at work. I’m terrible in my usage so i just started being equal opportunity.
They really used to give me looks back when until i explained.
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@lilyunsub This is the most important post I’ll read today and perhaps for quite some time. Not because of the emotional pain you felt and what you went through, but because of the breakthrough you had, the emotional stamina to have come out on the other side of that wall, because your strength was shown to you. You, CoSo friend are loved. 💜
@CherNohio @lilyunsub
Yes, what she said! You are strong, and you are loved.
@lilyunsub it’s ok to not be ok. It’s human. Feel. Talk. Communicate with people you trust.
And thank you for sharing. Every one processes this in a different way. Your story may help someone else. ❤️
@JGNWYRK I imagine there are a lot of people around the world who are or have been feeling very similar. Particularly those who are aware of how others are feeling and often spend their time helping, supporting and building them up because they know what it feels like to be in that place. It can create this pressure to not add to the weight of the world but being able to express it is a release valve and gives others the chance to know their love and support is a warm blanket on a cold night ❤️
@lilyunsub perhaps, but it doesn’t make your statement less important, or less brave. 
@JGNWYRK @lilyunsub thank you for your honesty and sharing how you are doing in these challenging times.
@Mauve_matelot @JGNWYRK ❤️ thank you (all of you) for holding the space for me to do so ❤️ its appreciated beyond words
That was one hell of a journey, but you made it through. Glad to see you wrestled that Beasty and defeated it. Good for you!
@lilyunsub This same feeling washes over me, & lately I've had more of these; crying is an excellent release & so is talking about it; there was a time when I'd be afraid to show any weakness by crying; I just refused to cry about anything & show feelings. Now, I find just letting it out & letting folks know true feelings helps a lot. Keep letting it out; it helps others; you've helped me by showing I'm not the only one feeling the way you do. Keep rising up one day at a time Dear💖🌹
@Gramdma2011 can very much relate to that ❤️ and thank you for showing me the same ❤️
Those long crying jags can be exhausting, but cathartic.
I'm glad you are feeling better today.
@lilyunsub Love not Fear in these times. ((mental hugs))