@iamwill1w9
It really sucks! Thank you.

@iamwill1w9
If you will allow me the moment when I found my mom

There was screaming. So much. Then I called 911.
And then before the authorities arrived I used my hands to memorize her entire experience of death.
I felt and caressed her whole face.
I know she died feeling pain, because I felt it.
I'm so sorry she did.

@Shelter 💔

@iamwill1w9

❤ to you.

@Mikethewander1
Far too many.
It is too much.

@Shelter my recent were my youngest sister died due to cancer in 2020. My ex-fiance with whom I stayed BFF with for 20 years earlier this year, my husband's brother last year due to cancer. My father-in-law to hospice currently due to cancer. My lover's sister who I was also a lover of 2 days ago. My next sister is fighting colon cancer. I've come to the conclusion that sometimes life really does suck.

@Mikethewander1

Yeah. It can.
I'm very sorry.

@foxtrax1
I appreciate that.
I will never know peace from this.
I know that while my mom was dying I was watching Jesus Christ, Superstar with my kids and my mom had said she hadn't slept well and she had neck pain. So I let her sleep, so I thought.
I will never be okay.

@Coffee_and_Salt
I will sleep as much as my brain lets me.
My kids will fucking deal.

@Shelter But mom. @Coffee_and_Salt

@Shelter Block him. Block him now.

@MrGoat

@MrGoat @Coffee_and_Salt

You have NO idea.

@Shelter Oh I do, it's why I never had children. @Coffee_and_Salt

@MrGoat @Coffee_and_Salt

But I will get up and do the shit.

But the sarcastic But, mom?

I will destroy you.

@Shelter Sorry I wasn't listening, but mom I'm not tired.
@Coffee_and_Salt

@MrGoat @Coffee_and_Salt
Cool.
Read a book.

@Shelter but mom I like when you read to me. @Coffee_and_Salt

@Shelter you can block him. its super easy. self care.

@MrGoat

@MrGoat @Coffee_and_Salt
Tonight is not the night for this.
To you, specifically, with this.
Please do not.

@Shelter Here I am getting in trouble on the internet. I hope your kids don't bug you too much honestly. @Coffee_and_Salt

@MrGoat @Coffee_and_Salt

You're not getting in trouble.
You're just not seeing the shit that was posted before.
I'm not going to be a parent that anyone expects me to be in any fashion.

@Shelter oh well in that case, be the parent you are. @Coffee_and_Salt

@MrGoat @Coffee_and_Salt

Let's talk.
I'm not kidding.
Why are you doing whatever this is?
I'm not angry nor offended.
I simply don't understand what you're trying to say.
I'd like very much to understand.
I don't understand other people very much, most of the time.

@Shelter In all fairness I was just being a smartass. No harm meant.. @Coffee_and_Salt

@MrGoat @Coffee_and_Salt
Okay.
I am autistic.
Everything is literal to me unless I have a prior, long relationship with a person where we can interact in a different fashion.
I don't understand why people on the internet think they can be this way with people they don't know well.
It's harmful.
It's not comfortable.

@Shelter I feel it's okay to be myself on the internet.

That aside. I'll refrain from sarcastic remarks towards you . =) Not here to make you angry. //@Coffee_and_Salt

@MrGoat
Not angry.
Confused.

I don't think y'all get it.
I'm not angry at all.
I'm perplexed.
I'm trying to figure out why this turned into that.
It is confusing AF.

@Shelter if it helps you - it's not important. at all. any of what I said.

@Shelter @MrGoat I think an attempt at levity was miscommunicated? Some find it to be a method of providing comfort socially. I apologize.

I think from what you've shared of your parenting that you're pretty kick ass at it. Opinion not based on expectation. Just observation.

@Coffee_and_Salt @MrGoat
No apologies needed.
Ever.

I have the right to explain what I am.
No one needs to apologize.
Life is what it is.

@Shelter I approve.