Maybe a rewatch of "All Creatures Great and Small" is in order today. It's a sweet, soothing show for me....lol Calm. And where they film is beautiful!

The anxiety is a flutterin' this morning. Doin' my best to fight it, as I am on my own this week. Ain't got time for a breakdown, when the hubbs ain't home to help. lol

I think it's going to be a Jello and popsicles while I lay in bed and watch TV, day. #Anxiety

I keep wanting to go start a load of laundry...Then I remember the washer is dead. lol Why couldn't it have been the dryer? I have a clothes line, I could hang dry! lol *sigh*

New washer in 5 days....!

Man.....New washing machine wont be delivered until Saturday. My current one is NOT happy and is not wanting to wash clothes anymore. 🙃

It gets about 10mins into a load....then shuts off. Just....just do this one load please.....please?!?! Hnnnnggg.

Had to buy a new washing machine. Again. Second one in like 5 or 6 years.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

I asked Husband to cut some "sticks" to be put into the window tracks, so they can't be opened.......

Every window now has a cut 2x4 in it's track........

I mean.....I guess it works.....*sigh*

My office smells like fish. Or wet cat food. You smell it when you first walk in, then after a minute or two, you can't smell it anymore, no matter where or how much you sniff. lol

I don't know what it is, and it's driving me insane. Hubbs helped sniff and he can't figure it out either.....

Guess I get to dismantle and clean the office tomorrow.

My BIL lost his GF and their baby earlier this week. We just found out this evening. An embolism that led to sepsis. I dont have all the details.

I'm absolutely heart broken for him, and her 3 daughters. This was going to be his first child......💔

Sure would be nice if I could get through a night without this anxiety dominating my brain.

My new Kindle showed up yesterday! It's so nice and big and shiny! lol

And, after a bit of a kerfluffle, I got the MAX app to work on it! (It quit working on my old Kindle)

Huzzah!

I can now have the dulcet tones of Sheldon Cooper lull me to sleep, each night, once again.

I also got a book about the Astors, written by The Silver Fox himself (Anderson Coooper lol)!

I did it! I hate making phone calls. Lol

Now, I need to call DirecTV/ATT today to downgrade our service, since we hardly ever watch it anymore.

I hope it'll be easy, but I know they have to push you to NOT downgrade/cancel.

I did one of the things I needed to do, that has been causing some of my anxiety.

Ordered my son's graduation announcements.

*big sigh*

So now I just have his graduation and graduation party to get all stressed out over! lol

Proved those fuckers at Capital One right.

Bought myself a new Kindle and a bunch of nail polish.

I've had a stupid day, shopping makes it better. Till the bill comes. lol

I ALMOST fell for a Discord hacking scam, and I'm SO MAD at myself for it.

Ugh..

I'm not having the best day...lol

Yes, I know "that's why they do it".

It was a rhetorical question. :)

"NOOOOOOOOO!" is what I howled into the universe, as I checked my email and see that Capital One, once again, increased my credit limit.

Why do they do this to meeeeee?! I can't be trusted!!! I like to shop too much!! Hnnnnggggg. Fuckers. lol

Did I just pay an extra $20+ dollars for my groceries to be delivered?

Yes. Yes I did.

I am thinkin that, once I get the kids to school, it'll be another rot in bed day.

The anxiety is winning. Ugh. #Anxiety

Nothing like a 3am panic attack to start the day!

I thank the universe, daily, for the man at the pot shop that suggested tinctures to me. They may not prevent my panic and anxiety attacks fully, but it does make them less frequent and bearable when they occur. I can FEEL it when it kicks in, if I'm having a tough time. It's just like, a blanket of calm comes over me, and settles the worst of it. It's not absent, but tolerable. #Anxiety