The area rug I ordered a month ago finally shipped! Hooray! It weighs 43lbs. The FedEx guys hate me, I know it. Lol

Taking the kids to the zoo today, since we are on Spring Break. Haven't been in awhile, as it's an hour drive each way, so it should be a good time!

I haven't driven on a freeway in who knows how long.....Cross your fingers for me! lol

Went kinda MIA this week, as I just haven't been feeling well, and one of my online communities actually noticed and inquired. That's never happened before. Feels kinda nice... :)

I need more romantic period dramas. I've watched all there is. lol The Gilded Age, Downton Abbey, Poldark, Sandition, Victoria, Bridgerton....etc

I've also re-watched all those many, many times. Guess ANOTHER re-watch is in order....

The anxiety has been coursing through my body for 3 days now and my usual coping mechanisms aren't really working. I know it will pass and I'll be just fine, but I just need to kinda...vent a little about it.

I have the kids Spring conferences today. Fingers crossed I get through them without vomiting. lol

Had a blood sugar episode yesterday, which triggered a panic attack, which caused tummy troubles, that made me struggle with eating all day, which then caused me to have another panic attack due to feeling awful, so then I only slept about 4 hours and am still feeling sick. Vicious freakin cycle, man.

I bought a pair of Skechers Slip Ins a few weeks ago, and have already bought two more pair. lol

They are really comfy, and help my foot pain, so I have two pair for outside and one pair that are inside only.

Hubbs had to convince me to buy them. They are a little pricey and I felt guilty for spending so much on shoes for myself, but am glad I did it.

Hooray for happy feet! :D

All the flowering cherry trees in town are bloomin! Makes me happy. Spring has sprung! :D #PNW

Middle kiddo turned 18 yesterday. I now have TWO adult children.

One more, then I am HOME FREE!!! lol

So, my sister (half) went and got a tattoo "for Dad" yesterday.

Totally took my idea for what I was planning on doing for a tattoo for Dad.

*sigh* #Grief

Texted my Dad's Widow, to say I am thinking about her and sending her love. All I get is "Thank you" in reply.

I know this is hard for her too, but throughout this WHOLE ordeal, I feel like people have forgotten that I lost my DAD too. She didn't just lose a husband of 6 years. I lost my Dad of 40. I have felt like my grief and loss hasn't been acknowledged at all by "family". It sucks and makes it so much harder. #Grief

Today is one year since Dad died. I miss him, a lot. I find myself wanting to call him and ask so many things, but I can't.

It's still a little surreal to me, that both my parents are gone. #Grief

Ordered myself some Skechers shoes, cause I'm old and my flat, no support slip ons aren't doin it for my feet anymore....

$109. ONE HUNDRED AND NINE DOLLARS. WTF.

When I was a kid, Skechers were at PAYLESS!!! $19.99 for them sumsabitches.

All the crap I ordered from Amazon is set to arrive today. Hooray!

Thankfully, husband is still outta town, so he will not see all the crap I ordered from Amazon. Hooray!

(He doesn't actually care, but would absolutely be like "WTF!?" if he was here to witness the delivery.....lol)

Anxiety has been getting the best of me all night. Didn't sleep well because of it.

Not sure what it's problem is. I am not KNOWINGLY anxious over anything specific. Everything is fine in reality. ( World crises aside)

I just picked up a bottle of tincture, but Imma have to get another one soon, if my brain doesn't calm the fuck down. lol

If I have to hear that woman singing about how "this ain't Texas" one more time, I will unleash my peri-menopausal fury upon the world.

Holy shit, I hate it. HATE. LOATHE.

Feelin kinda funky this afternoon. Can't really tell if it's anxiety, if my blood sugar is wonky, or if it's something else....

I'm hungry, but the thought and act of eating right now is really difficult and kind of repulsive. Maybe a nap after I get the kids home....

I lied! It's there! WAHOO!!!

Time to shop! :D

Tax return is supposed to show up today. So far, it has not.

*sigh*

I've got a shopping cart full of stuff on Amazon and an itchy clicker finger. lol

The Mister is off to Los Angeles for the week. Just the first of many, MANY trips he has to take for work this year. Home for 3 weeks, gone for a week. Home for 3 weeks, gone for a week, all through September. *sigh*

I'll miss him, but I get a King sized bed to starfish in while he's gone. lol