It's a weird thing, I can't make large purchases without it actually making me feel ill. I want to enjoy and be excited I'm getting a computer today but I actually feel nauseous. It's always the same.
I do not enjoy buying myself what I see are frivolities (even if they aren't)
I put it down to financial instability when I was growing up.
Shit sticks with you.
@process Same. I feel this.
@process Oh gosh I understand this one all too well. I grew up well below the poverty line and I swear it never truly goes away. Even having a successful business and a sense of stability now I STILL struggle with doubt and uncertainty. Do I really need it? Deserve it? Am I worthy of this or that? Every. Single. Time. It’s gotten a little easier to quell the doubt but it never actually goes away. Just know you ARE deserving and worthy and should enjoy your new computer! I’m happy for you!!!
I didn't grow up poor, but financially unstable. It was feast or famine.
My enduring bad habits are spending everything while I have it, and hoarding food. I have a cabinet full of dry beans and grains that'd take me years to eat.
@process
// @Autumn