The last couple days have been brutal. Finally got a small sense of relief from the back issues and immediately my brain launches back into the crippling emotional stuff of processing whats happened to us the last 6 months, let alone the last 2 years. The universe has been brutal and I don't really know how to keep pushing through it. Shit is hard.
@PaganMother I'm sorry its been so tough for you too ❤️ feel like the body breaking was literally under the weight of trying to process what happened and it just gave out. Soon as it started coming right its like an emotional gut punch. Tired of losing so much, being silenced and having to hold the consequences of other peoples damage. I hope things get so much better for you ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
@lilyunsub Same for you my friend, I hope things look up soon, ride tough Lily and co. You got this even if your slipping a bit, you'll catch and pull up. I'll be here to cheer you on the whole way as long as you'll let me.
@PaganMother 😭 ❤️ often the way we've dealt with things is to turn it into something creative, make beauty out of bullshit, pictures out of scars, but being unable to create, to do anything, has been hard. And when that falls away, there is just this deeply intense rage and a lot of pain. The idea that I can't at least turn that energy into something useful or beautiful means its just burning me from the inside out. I don't know how to turn it around. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
@PaganMother thank you btw, really really means a lot to me (to all of us) ❤️
@lilyunsub <3 Just focus on the things that benefit you and the collective best, okay? Breathing, making sure you are hydrated and well fed, resting, it does get better, it's only a bad day, not a bad life.
@lilyunsub
Yup all I can say is you are not alone
I have just been through stuff I thought I had avoided /got rid of out of my life and I really wet into meltdown , the whole #Covid ordeal is still so real and yet the pretence continues that it is over etc
I am resorting to studying Buddhism Stoicism ad other Eastern Traditions to find my way through
It is helping me work with my thoughts but the emotional realm is hard work right now
Love and hugs
@Eviestorm I feel that so much. So much of the last few years has just been 'block it out, keep going', pure survival mode. And even though covid is still going, there is a large amount of time to process things and so much of it is horrific (beyond covid itself, just on the personal front). I can often keep my thoughts in line with similar kinds of work but emotions have a mind of their own and the body remembers even if we struggle to. Sending lots of love your ways ❤️
@lilyunsub *big hugs* I had wondered if you were okay. Life's been especially tough the last few months for us as well.