I almost cancelled myself on Saturday. I dropped the kids off to my Mum and then came home to do it.
I took myself to bed and lay there and stared at the ceiling for 3 hours. I was ready to do it when I came home, but I forced myself to bed instead and just lay there.
No one knows. I'm spiralling again. I'm tired.
@singlemaltgirl I rang Lifeline but didn't go past being on hold. I'm ok, I think. Thank you for trying to help xx
@gabzi3la oh damn. i'm so sorry. but i'm glad you're doing okay for now. i hope you can build on that. & find some more longer term, reliable support. you don't have to go it alone. i know that means risking being vulnerable. i know that is hard. but please know you're worth it. & that it doesn't always have to feel this way. 🙏🏾
I’m sorry to see that you are in such a state of despair and overwhelm—life can feel unbearably heavy 😔
I’m thankful that you held yourself back from a fatal decision and that you gave voice to your struggle—when no one knows, the pain of those thoughts is even worse.
Please look into resources where you are—trained folks can be found through this site
You are not alone, and you matter more than you might feel right now 💜
Just thinking of you 💜
@Minholkin thank you, I'll take a look at the site. I've just been going through the daily motions, but my partner has been helping. He knows.
@gabzi3la Please call or get help from local resources. You are not alone and deserve to get help. Spiraling is scary. Wish I knew who to call for you.
@ACG2 thank you. I really appreciate the messages here of care and hope. My partner knows now and is helping.
@gabzi3la Please get yourself the help you need. You are very much worth it. I wish I knew who you could call. Please find out what resources are close to you and keep the number on speed dial. Please do this for yourself. You matter.
@GrandmaJ thank you. The messages here have helped. Lifeline wasn't of much help but my partner knows and is helping.
@gabzi3la I am glad you have someone there to support and help you. You matter. People do care. Reach out when you need to. Wishing you all the best.
@gabzi3la Checking in….
@gabzi3la do you have support? someone you can talk to/call on?
is there a distress line or crisis line you can call?
i'm sorry i don't know what else to suggest.