I almost cancelled myself on Saturday. I dropped the kids off to my Mum and then came home to do it.
I took myself to bed and lay there and stared at the ceiling for 3 hours. I was ready to do it when I came home, but I forced myself to bed instead and just lay there.
No one knows. I'm spiralling again. I'm tired.
I’m sorry to see that you are in such a state of despair and overwhelm—life can feel unbearably heavy 😔
I’m thankful that you held yourself back from a fatal decision and that you gave voice to your struggle—when no one knows, the pain of those thoughts is even worse.
Please look into resources where you are—trained folks can be found through this site
You are not alone, and you matter more than you might feel right now 💜
Just thinking of you 💜
@Minholkin thank you, I'll take a look at the site. I've just been going through the daily motions, but my partner has been helping. He knows.