Right now I feel just like I did when the diagnosis for my cancer came back.
Numb.
I am empty. No rage. No anger. No frustration. Not even a sense of sadness.
Just a vast chasm where my soul should be.
I am a vacuum where not even a molecule of emotion resides.
I function on muscle memory. I post but the the anger, blame, the sadness is a façade. The actual me is gone.
I want to believe there is a future with me in it but I feel like the days I was on chemo.
Blank.
@feloneouscat May you feel the warmth of the sun and the love of friends here who value you. May you grieve as you need to. ❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🫂🫂❤️
@feloneouscat
My anger lies seething in the pit of my stomach. I cannot believe the stupidity of the masses of people who voted for evil, hatred and ruin. I have the capability to sit back, close my gates and live on my own Valhalla while the world spirals downward. As the song goes, "When will they ever learn? When will they ever learn....."
@feloneouscat I may be similar or close.😢
This leaves the country open to even more of a real mess-up from which there is no going back. The incompetent handling of the COVID-19 pandemic may pale in comparison.