Right now I feel just like I did when the diagnosis for my cancer came back.

Numb.

I am empty. No rage. No anger. No frustration. Not even a sense of sadness.

Just a vast chasm where my soul should be.

I am a vacuum where not even a molecule of emotion resides.

I function on muscle memory. I post but the the anger, blame, the sadness is a façade. The actual me is gone.

I want to believe there is a future with me in it but I feel like the days I was on chemo.

Blank.