My mom was taken off life support yesterday and has been breathing on her own ever since. She’s lost virtually all of her brain function and is expected to pass within a matter of hours or days.
I am beyond devastated and not emotionally equipped to process something like this. My entire world has been turned upside down over the span of one weekend, and I just don’t think I’m strong enough to weather it.
I want to thank everyone for the kindness and support they’ve shown. It means more than you know, and I cannot overstate my gratitude.
This happened so suddenly and came completely out of nowhere. Once again, if you have people you care about, please take every opportunity to tell them.
I love you so much, Mom. Always and forever. And I don’t know if I can face a world in which you’re gone.
@MrsHowelsEyebrows Thank you so much. I don’t know how I’m ever going to accept this.
@TheCard That hole in the world where she used to be doesn't ever go away completely. But it does stop being such an impossible howling void, eventually.
I even reached a point where I don't *want* it to disappear, because if I forget it's there I've forgotten my husband, and forgetting him is the only thing I can imagine worse than losing him.
If you can handle reading even a bit, I highly recommend Megan Devine's book How to Carry What Can't Be Fixed.
@danialexis Thank you so much for the kind words, and I am so sorry for your loss. There have been times where I’ve wished I could simply erase my memories of her, even though I don’t truly want that. Once my mind has recovered to a point at which I can handle reading, I’ll look into that book.
Thank you again.
@TheCard @danialexis
I'm so sorry for your loss.
I thought I might die from the pain when I lost my Mom.
anything by Megan Devine
"Some things cannot be fixed; they can only be carried. Grief like yours, love like yours, can only be carried'.
I know nothing helps with the pain right now, but we're here if you need anything.
@heyrhiannon @danialexis Words can’t describe how much I appreciate all this kindness. Thank you so much.
@TheCard I'm so sorry you're going through this. I also lost my mom suddenly. It took me months before I spoke to anyone. I hope the Universe shows you kindness while you heal.
@VenomousHeroine Thank you so much. I am truly sorry for your loss, and I appreciate your kindness and compassion.
@TheCard
I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that you are not alone. So many of us know the pain you're feeling. And though it might not feel like it right now, you can endure this. We're all here for you if need to share. And remember, everyone grieves in their own way, in their own time.
@TomeReader Thank you so much for the kind words. (And apologies for taking forever to see this.)
It hurts so much. I don’t know if this is something I can come back from.
@TheCard I’m so sorry. Please know you’re in my thoughts today. And please stay with us on CoSo as much as you are able. You can also reach out for support through the hospital. They do have people there who can help with the overwhelming feelings you are having right now. ♥️