My mom was taken off life support yesterday and has been breathing on her own ever since. She’s lost virtually all of her brain function and is expected to pass within a matter of hours or days. 


I am beyond devastated and not emotionally equipped to process something like this. My entire world has been turned upside down over the span of one weekend, and I just don’t think I’m strong enough to weather it.

I want to thank everyone for the kindness and support they’ve shown. It means more than you know, and I cannot overstate my gratitude.


This happened so suddenly and came completely out of nowhere. Once again, if you have people you care about, please take every opportunity to tell them.


I love you so much, Mom. Always and forever. And I don’t know if I can face a world in which you’re gone.

@TheCard That hole in the world where she used to be doesn't ever go away completely. But it does stop being such an impossible howling void, eventually.

I even reached a point where I don't *want* it to disappear, because if I forget it's there I've forgotten my husband, and forgetting him is the only thing I can imagine worse than losing him.

If you can handle reading even a bit, I highly recommend Megan Devine's book How to Carry What Can't Be Fixed.

@danialexis Thank you so much for the kind words, and I am so sorry for your loss. There have been times where I’ve wished I could simply erase my memories of her, even though I don’t truly want that. Once my mind has recovered to a point at which I can handle reading, I’ll look into that book.

Thank you again.