My mom was taken off life support yesterday and has been breathing on her own ever since. She’s lost virtually all of her brain function and is expected to pass within a matter of hours or days.
I am beyond devastated and not emotionally equipped to process something like this. My entire world has been turned upside down over the span of one weekend, and I just don’t think I’m strong enough to weather it.
I want to thank everyone for the kindness and support they’ve shown. It means more than you know, and I cannot overstate my gratitude.
This happened so suddenly and came completely out of nowhere. Once again, if you have people you care about, please take every opportunity to tell them.
I love you so much, Mom. Always and forever. And I don’t know if I can face a world in which you’re gone.
@TheCard That hole in the world where she used to be doesn't ever go away completely. But it does stop being such an impossible howling void, eventually.
I even reached a point where I don't *want* it to disappear, because if I forget it's there I've forgotten my husband, and forgetting him is the only thing I can imagine worse than losing him.
If you can handle reading even a bit, I highly recommend Megan Devine's book How to Carry What Can't Be Fixed.
@danialexis Thank you so much for the kind words, and I am so sorry for your loss. There have been times where I’ve wished I could simply erase my memories of her, even though I don’t truly want that. Once my mind has recovered to a point at which I can handle reading, I’ll look into that book.
Thank you again.
@heyrhiannon @danialexis Words can’t describe how much I appreciate all this kindness. Thank you so much.
@TheCard @danialexis
I'm so sorry for your loss.
I thought I might die from the pain when I lost my Mom.
"Some things cannot be fixed; they can only be carried. Grief like yours, love like yours, can only be carried'.
I know nothing helps with the pain right now, but we're here if you need anything.