It’s been really hard for me to figure this out. Even just to find a place where I feel I remotely belong, much less a place. I’m not terrified I’ll be forced out of. It’s time to stop thinking about it and just do something about it. If you have any suggestions, please don’t hesitate to offer them.
I am Canadian by the way if that makes a difference. I have a really varied work background because of this and don’t know where to go from here.
I appreciate your advice
What I do know is that I cannot keep looking to other people to help me succeed, I need to do that on my own, but I can’t do that without some guidance. I have a lot of ideas. I’m incredibly bright. And I’ve tried before, and I’ve been taken advantage of over and over again.
Really all I want is freedom. To not have to be worried that I won’t understand, or that someone won’t make the effort to accommodate me. I want to be able to support myself, and my family.
I’m tired of it. Tired of not being able to provide for my family tired of feeling like I’m being rejected every time I try something tired of not understanding. I really really want to do something on my own. I want to be my own boss. But at the same time, I’m terrified because I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know where to begin legally I don’t know how to find customers. I don’t know how I would fund myself. I don’t even know what idea to choose.
I wanna ask for some advice, but I’m not really sure how so I’ll try to explain and I’ll let you jump in however you feel is suitable.
To preface I’m on the autism spectrum - high functioning, but not without struggles.
I’ve lost a lot of jobs because of the side effects, because of people’s biases, or because of my own misunderstandings, and that’s exhausting and incredibly disheartening.
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I really feel called to teach. I have no formal training in that area, or money to pursue that. I have no affiliations with clubs, societies or cultural/religious groups that may consider me within their ranks, but I feel drawn to it. I love helping people to understand.
Do you have any suggestions?
I had a vision in the seventh grade of the shift between eras. I’ve never been more convinced of any experience I’ve had before. I saw fire and chaos, I saw the works of the false prince. And since that day there has not been a single day I’ve not remembered that dream, not thought about the dates and things impressed on my heart.
I only remember the messages. Never the illusions.
If you’re doing the work already be proud and know you have nothing to fear.
But the time is coming soon.
I met one once, on one of my darkest nights, when I thought I was alone on the road. He said his name was Michael, and that he had been sent by his father because He needed a new body. He knew my name, and called out to me - and assigned me a new one. I’ve never experienced anything like it. Never been more convicted by any experience.
I know it was lost months ago, but I became attracted to…that spirit…and to the idea that I’d finally have a child of my own, and some part of my longs to…commemorate that in some way, but I don’t really know what would be…fitting.
It’s been a very hard couple of days, with a lot of feelings I don’t know how to express.
I’m never here. I should be, but I sort of forget. But time and time again you’ve shown to be the most supportive group I’ve found on the internet.
There’s just something I want to get off my chest.
My wife and I were expecting our first baby a few days ago. She miscarried very early on. All that pain came sweeping back. Oh how I long to hold that child in my arms.