Dumping out my bag.
Yesterday was BAD.
I finally admitted how bad and dialed 988. I've scheduled the next full week off work. I'm going to the behavioral place today in about an hour to ask for help.
I don't know what's wrong with me and why am I this way but it has to change.
Sorry for the sudden drama after the long hiatus.
Done. Intaken and scheduled for therapy and psychiatric appraisal next week.
Heads up, if you are broken in the town you grew up in then the people fixing you will probably know you from your youth. Just saying.
I'm still hanging in there.
@NiveusLepus
Thanks for saying that. I mean, well, honestly I don't know what I mean except thank you!
@testamonk You're welcome. The journey you are on is not easy, it's a very hard thing, but it is worthwhile.
We can get comfortable with being miserable and let that keep us from working towards our own happiness.
I'm cheering you on all the way. ^_^
@testamonk You are courageous. Thank you for sharing your journey here.