I mean no offense to anyone but... I've been a Christian all my living days, I have been a staunch believer that God will always win for those who trust him. Today, for the first time in my life, I am doubting his very existence. I don't want to say that, I've always dreaded even thinking that. But today, I am losing my religion so to speak. I am not sure my faith can recover from this. Being brutally honest.