What are your go-to's for when the void calls and you feel disconnected/disillusion/discouraged? Been having the RSD (rejection sensitivity disorder) making it really difficult to approach doing anything that could possibly result in rejection and its kind of crippling as an artist (since everything creative has a level of rejection attached to it) and trying to figure out how to overcome that and stay level after a lot of rejection. Doing things solo is hard...
ps if you can recall what created this fear in you, you can also face it and erase it head on with therapy or meditation, pure intention to let it go, as it doesn't serve you at all.
I need to do that, myself, actually.... @lilyunsub
@Armchaircouch The collapse of inner circle of 'friends', being locked out of the music industry here in NZ. All of which were because of holding boundaries and expecting not to be treated badly. โค๏ธ its a feeling of powerlessness thats come from standing up for myself and being punished for it. Its like a rock and a hard place and both have spikes on them.
Aw :( It sounds like ur suffering loss of your tribe? it's brutal to most people. I offer an alternative POV, if it helps, good.
You're in a growth phase, those people weren't in line with it. I think Goddess (or god, or the universe, or fate, whatever ya call it) removes situations in order to find one in tune with the higher vibration you're now putting out.
Those doors shut so you can find better. they wanted you to be less of who you are, to accommodate them! fck em. @lilyunsub
@lilyunsub and we can say fuck em all we want, and even find better, but it still hurts, I know. *hugs*
I think human nature is actually not to be unkind to each other. I think that's the pervasive negative nature of the ego getting in the way. This is my theory of why people being mean or attacking physically is so hurtful.
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We all love what you're doing, lean on us for support as much as you can.
@Armchaircouch โค๏ธ โค๏ธ ๐ณ โค๏ธ โค๏ธ yeah, so much loss and it really really hurts. I believe the same about human nature, I can't be unkind to people, even holding boundaries I'm still trying to hold space for understanding but not at my expense. But it sure gets really ugly when its touching on insecurities and peoples ideas of who they are despite their actions. Thank you for the insight and support, it really does help โค๏ธ so much
โฅ๏ธ good for you to hold your boundaries!
Youโre welcome, Iโm glad it helps! โบ๏ธ
Maybe this will lead to creation of some really deep, great music ๐ณ which is such irony.
Iโm sorry youโre hurting and I hope you find comfort somehow, asap, โฅ๏ธ @lilyunsub
@Armchaircouch Its entirely likely, that tends to be our go to eventually to process things. Music is the safe place but it can get tainted by RSD when we're releasing it. โค๏ธ thank you for taking the time to talk through things and for the perspective shift xX
I don't care if it's cold, rainy, or snowing.
Get out into wild nature.
Just be a human, in nature, for a long while.
Nature is free of human rejection.
When you say the Void calls, do you mean "L'Appel Du Vide" or more like Ennui?
The former is fine unless it persists longer than a moment. The latter, while unpleasant, usually is solved by just doing SOMETHING. Anything.
@lilyunsub I have a hard time getting back on the horse in face of that fear, too. it's crippled me more than once.
ultimately do we want to die regretting, or live with the weight of what if....
I'm trying to adopt an attitude of Fuck it, to be able to move forward in efforts. All good things endured hardship and "failure" but when we learn, it converts failure to something not so painful.
Just gotta move, even when it's hard, there's no trick but to just do it. :) I think, anyway.