Okay, I gotta 'fess up, y'all. I'm having a go of it trying to be the calm, stable adult in the house. Son and I had to start the claim process with our insurance. Well, I learned that his car didn't just wreck; it rolled. Ffs. I've already lost one son. To find out that kiddo #2 was closer to... I don't even want to say it.

Subconscious is telling me how stressed I truly am by way of using dreams. CPTSD is a MFer. Not letting it win today, just for today.

Attended a local friend's 40th celebration and happily discovered that "Capture the Flag" is still going strong. This aging banner is from my 1st Ozarks hg in West Plains, MO. It was a 2 hour round-trip to attend meetings/events. Good times. 💖

(hint: bottom, beneath B & O)

This evening I had the rare privilege to attend a dear friend's recovery celebration - 37 years clean. Longevity like this is admirable, although the newcomer is, ideally, the most important person at a meeting. All any of us can claim with any certainly is today, this moment, right now. Each individual day free from the nightmare of active addiction is a gift. And if nobody's told you lately, You are a miracle, and You are deeply loved. 💖

Quick St. Patrick's Day weekend confession. Even though it's been 29 years since my last drink (1/26/95), I do still occasionally miss a nice Guinness.

Not romancing the drink; sometimes fleeting thoughts must be expressed because we're only as sick as our secrets.

Consecutive daily reprieve 10,419

Grateful to have my car back, so that I can keep today's Red Cross blood drive appointment and also attend my 1st f2f meeting in months.

First NA Zoom meeting in a few weeks was good. Decided to attend a group I hadn't been to before. Warm welcome and great shares full of ESH (Experience, Strength, and Hope). Topic was from literature IP: Relapse and Recovery.

For people in need of a good online NA meeting locator:

virtual-na.org/meetings/

Robitussin's honey DM formula reminds me of Sambuca.

At 28+ years in recovery, why tf do I recall minutiae like this? There's a working concept in AA/NA which posits that those who can't recall their last drunk/high haven't had it yet.

Yes, I remember hitting rock-f*cking-bottom in 1995. Still, non-disastrous recollection of a gross black licorice liqueur tried nearly 35 years ago?

My brain is one crazy damned vault at times.

Yeah, yeah... Obligatory statement; brace yourselves...

👉 Recovery isn't a competition.

aaaand...

👉 Recovery is about its quality,
not its quantity.

/soapbox

Because gratitude, as many of us have been taught, is an action.

Aerosmith - Amazing

youtu.be/3LKD-XQjEHs

Ugh. Sometimes, having a conscience can be a total pain in the butt. It's short notice, but keeping the hall open does need to be approved by the board. Not terribly concerned, though. All this should require is for one board member to okay premises use for temporary emergency today and tomorrow. If not, I still have zero issue putting my ass on the line if it means giving others a safe alternative to seeking shelter in a bar.

Happy Tuesday, y'all. Keeping this suggestion super simple, especially for those in early recovery.

Instead of getting all spun up about a specific calendar date, focus on *today*. For Us, the reality is that it's like every other day: again, We are given the choice of not picking up, no matter what. Best of all, none of Us has to go it alone. Unconditional love exists daily, ODAAT/JFT. 💖

NYE is referred to in some circles as Amateur Night. Just sayin'.

Be safe, everyone. And especially for / folks, please don't be the one to FAFO. We're here for eachother.

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