Everything truly does happen for a reason! There are no coincidences! I realized that by the flooring being defective worked out, since I'm realizing that I'm not as thrilled with it when I picked it out! Even though it's a PIA to have to pick out new flooring and have it installed, it worked out as it was meant to be! 🤣
On the flip side, I accomplished everything that I set out to do today! It's amazing how a good night's sleep makes all of the difference!
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@duglop @Spagesgallo1 hmm I think the last time I actually slept was maybe April of 1973. Lol I still have to wake up and walk the perimeter every night. I am pretty sure I have actually done that in my sleep too. Could explain why I wake up so exhausted. 🤔
Wow! 1973? Were you in the military? I ask, because of you mentioning your need to walk the perimeter every night! Not surprised you wake up so exhausted! When I was working,
I used to wake up in the middle of the night with panic attacks and an absolute sense of dread! Have you spoken to your doctor about the issues with your sleep? Nothing worse than having sleep deficits! 😔
@Spagesgallo1 @duglop yes I was in the Military. And yes I have had VA mental health trying to improve my sleep for decades.
They tell me that Hyper Vigilance isn't necessary. I ask them how they know that it isn't what has kept me alive.
I went to bed tonight at 9PM. But at 1AM I am wide awake. An unusual noise woke me and I still don't know what it was. Unfortunately there are thousands of Vets who deal with this and other Stress issues that we have had to learn to deal with on our own.
@Spagesgallo1 @duglop At 70 not much has changed. In reality PTSD affects each of us differently.
For me Hyper Vigilance during sleep is something I can't give up. It has saved my life too many times. During sleep is the only time I feel vulnerable. And vulnerable is something I just can't wrap my brain around.
I am not in war any longer, unfortunately their are real life dangers in the night. My brain hardwired itself to detect the threats and I am actually afraid to try to fix that problem.
@Wolfman are you in farm area? Would it help to have motion activated lights, motion activated sound, roommate, and/or dog/geese/guinea? The idea being that the comfort of knowing guard duty is spread out might buy an extra hour or two of sleep and that would add up. @Spagesgallo1 @duglop
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That is so true about PTSD affecting everyone differently! Everyone is unique and will be affected to traumatic events in various ways. What a hellish aftereffect of feeling the most vulnerable when sleeping as a result of your service. But I hear you about having been
hyper vigilant having saved your life. It's obviously a coping skill that you carried over to civilian life. Not easy to undo. It's understood that you wouldn't feel comfortable trying to fix the issue now.
@Wolfman @Spagesgallo1 I feel you - I'm also a Vet with PTSD & anxiety, medications don't help at all and besides I hate feeling medicated (I'm10 years sober to boot), the only thing that seems to help is music, and animals and being outdoors - working off my energy at work seems to help too - but I'm not young anymore so it wears me out quickly now :( my anxiety interferes with me at work when it gets super crazy busy - no win scenario :( and a good night sleep is a whole different story
@duglop @Spagesgallo1 yeah me too. I get a good night sleep if you can call it that when I need sleep so bad I collapse into an unconscious slumber.
@duglop @Spagesgallo1 I can relate to music, animals and the outdoors.
I can see one house from mine and it's at least a mile in any direction to another house. I am a fantastic neighbor but I have only had one and I have lived next door to him for 30 years. Lol we have the crossfire defense worked our to an exact science. He watches out for me and I wath out for him.
@Wolfman that's wonderful you look out for each other. Just thinking out loud would it help for you two to have motion lights, sound, and dog/geese/guinea? That might buy some peace of mind knowing that anything in a certain vicinity would trigger something. Motion sound and lights may trigger off animals a few times but usually they are intelligent enough to stay away from it later. Where I am there are vets and a lot of dogs. The dogs trigger off sirens or people. @duglop @Spagesgallo1
Dug, thank you for your service as well! I am so sorry that you are also affected by PTSD and anxiety! It always breaks my heart knowing that our Veterans are suffering! But, Congratulations on 10 years of sobriety! I'm happy you have found methods to help calm you. Music and animals can definitely be very therapeutic!
@Spagesgallo1 @Wolfman thank you
@Wolfman @duglop
1st, I want to say thank you for your service!
I understand why you and thousands of other Vets deal with similar issues, along with stress related issues! I had a feeling. That's why I asked if you had served in the military. I can't imagine what you have been dealing with on a daily basis. I am so sorry that the VA makes it sound so easy to just stop being hyper vigilant! Like you said, it kept you alive while serving. It's not like a light switch. Again, I'm so sorry.
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It must have been an amazing, restful sleep! Especially since it's lasted you this long! Damn!
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