@MrsBentoBako been there. It sucks but it's educational. My solution was to completely cut ties and burn bridges and move on. It's hard but it helps.
Hang in there.
@Liliki
Hardest part is the people are family. I’ve always known they resented me, I was always ganged up on when I was younger, picked on, teased for being a “baby” because they would make me cry. But after today, I have irrefutable evidence that they have tolerated me for the last 22 years. I was already going to cut ties and go low contact after my mom’s estate is settled, but now I’m going no contact. They won’t miss me. They never have two shots about me before. I shouldn’t be surprised.
@Liliki
My sisters do not even know how much they have traumatized me. Even now. My dogs are scared at my screaming. My husband is at work and even he doesn’t know.
@MrsBentoBako snuggle with your dogs, I promise they will help you. Mine do, everytime I'm upset. In fact your dogs will always be more loyal to you, more loving and understanding than any being on earth. They are sentient. So start with your dogs. Breathe slowly and deeply, center yourself on your dogs. Even if they're scared now, they'll eventually come to you and give you affection.
Start there.
@MrsBentoBako Also:
You are young, it's better to find out early. Trust me on this.
And there is life after toxic families.
You will have to work on trust and codependency issues, but you will grow. And friends will happen. Family doesn't mean blood.
You make your own.
It'll get better because you will grow stronger and make real connections.
Hang in there.
@MrsBentoBako it was my family too. Then my husband and kids whom he manipulated their entire lives against me. (It was an extremely psychologically abusive marriage) I understand.
It'll hurt like a bitch at first, but keep moving forward, don't look back.
It's especially important that you do not look back.
You will heal. Be gentle to yourself.