Every person with bipolar is different. I can tell when I'm in a downcycle because I have an unbearable ache to be silent--I can't stand hearing the sound of my voice, or seeing any sign of myself in the world--& I'm furious with myself for not just going away & being silent forever.
It passes, & my downcycles used to be much, much worse, but when they come around they carry such history.
The trick is not being angry at all the waste.
Feed gratitude for still being here at all.
yeah, the down disaster marathon is tough to endure and move out of.
may the darkness resolve into joy, the bliss of being, on the other end🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I was so thankful for your own disclosure, many months back. Thank you, holon - not only for your presence as a fellow-traveller, but also for everything you do to ground and care for yourself. It is a gift to see the world a little from your point of view. 🫂