I made the decision to have my dog put down tomorrow late afternoon.

He's so clearly suffering, it's time.

Starts with a cloud of strings, underpinned by some bass instrument so deep it has no tone, only sounds like the wind of a deep mountain storm. I can *feel* it in my ears, thrumming.

Ends with a single cello, fading away.

Listening to the Skyrim soundtrack by Jeremy Soule. "Wind Guide You" is apparently something I need right now.

@LnzyHou Unwalkable city & no car, unfortunately, but I did get a stretching routine in & some water, so that helped. <3

I haven't gotten shit done at work today, too busy trying to hold my shit together.

I'm totally overwhelmed right now. Just closed email, I fucking can't right now.

@BFBucky1 Thanks. Yeah it definitely is, even when it's the right thing to do.

Anyway, I put a call into the vet this morning. They advised I monitor him through the weekend, then call 1st thing Monday morning to get him into an urgent slot for evaluation.

It's hard to tell at this point: is he having a bad day? Or is it time to go?

This is the worst. One of the heartbreaks about owning pets is knowing they won't live as long as people do, & having to make the decision to put them down.

He's 16 so this isn't any surprise. It's still fucking awful.

Well... I think the light is going out for my dog. 😢

He's been circling nonstop for about the last 12 hours. Won't eat even when hand fed. I'm not sure if it's a bad day, or if it's time for him to cross the Rainbow Bridge.

Just saw a useful quote: "Resentment is a sign of a boundary needed but not set."

Quelle surprise: https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1111/pops.12867

@ExecutiveFunction404 LOL yeah I'll probably have 'em on speed dial...

HOLY.

FUCKING.

SHIT.

I'M BUYING A HOUSE.

WTAF.

Guys... I'm buying a house!

I'm seriously buying a fucking HOUSE!

@BenWalker Yeah this might turn into one of those days where I'm a warm body in a chair, simply because if I touch anything it'll, I dunno, burst into flames or something.

UGGGGHHHH it's one of those days where EVERY. LITTLE. THING. I try to do just FAILS.

I haven't even been online for an hour yet & have met roadblock after roadblock after roadblock. FML.

@thedisasterautist It seems to have become more of a thing now that there was a precedent established for it. I was advised to write one by my agent, to gain sympathy from the buyer as we start in on the whole negotiating process.

@thedisasterautist It started some years ago when the market was much more competitive, & sellers could pick & choose who they sold their home to. Buyers started writing letters of appeal, basically - a "here's why you should pick me to buy your house" letter.

UGH I'm writing a homebuyer's letter to the seller of the home I'm putting an offer on.

I HATE this sort of thing. It's like writing cover letters or resumes or some shit like that.