Ok.
I am fighting off a panic attack.

Tomorrow is my 55th birthday. My mom died from breast cancer at 54. My dad died this year. I had a heart attack 7 years ago at Christmas.

So I was already feeling highly vulnerable.

Today, I learned my landlord won't renew my lease at the end of the year. So my plan to move cross country in May is now happening in a couple of months. I may get an extra month, which would help, so I'm not trying to move over the holidays.

*breathe*