Last year I wrote 20k words, and deleted 10k. I'm happy to report that I'm back in the green!!!

Whats crazy is that this is just the beginning of my story. My zombies haven't even shown up yet. LOL 😆 🤣 😂 😹

#WritingCommunity #Writing #writersofcoso #novel #zombies

Happy sunday everyone. Making a breakfast sandwich for my lovely wife and petting the dogs.

I hope everyones having a great night. I wrote today and got over a huge obstacle in my story, and I feel good about that. The wife and I got Thai food, she had Masaman Curry and I had spicy noodle soup, soooo good.

Now we are listening to Kim Petras in a beanbag in our loft waiting for blast off from the gummies we just ate while our dogs snuggle us.

Its a nice night.

I would like to clarify that I'm not looking for pity, or reassurance. I'm just being honest about my feelings, sense of inadequacy, imposter syndrome that follows me in every creative venture I pursue. Whether its in my writing, my video editing, interacting with an audience, or even if its just dick jokes... Expression is so important to me and my sense of worth, but my failures follow me, and never cease to remind me that I'm not cut out for this, I dont deserve it, and I should give up.

I used to be a Youtuber. For 3 or so years I made my living by making videos, and outsourcing my editing skills to bigger youtube channels.

In that capacity, I suppose I was successful. But I never reached the level of success I hoped I would, and for that I feel like a failure.

Now I revisit those memories and feelings as I venture into a podcasting project with my wife, and I'm constantly left with a nagging feeling like I will fail because I dont have what it takes, and never did.

I dont think that they boost out health, or alter our states of mind. I think we have just been mushroom deficient. Now we are rediscovering them and talking about how great they are like its something new, like they haven't been doing this with us for millions of years.

Its like if I just discovered vegetables and started talking about all the medicinal benefits of broccoli 🥦.

Eat more mushrooms. Eat a variety of them. The mycellium want you to, its why they grow them.

I have a theory, and its a pretty good one.

Mushrooms are the oldest form of life on this planet. Long before the dinosaurs, there were forests of giant mushrooms. We came from them, and we evolved with them. They created medicinal compounds that we ate and in time they started to change us. The mushrooms and us became codependent.

In the last 1000 years, we rejected mushrooms, and lost these compounds in our diet.

Combine cordyceps with lions man, turkeytail, reishi and chaga, and you have a powerful combination of compounds that will change your life, even if you think you're at peak performance.

If people continue to be afraid of these things, reject them, dismiss their value, then we are living in the dark age dispite the lights being on. Dispite having access to all of human kinds wealth of knowledge at our fingertips.

Cordyceps has been proven to increase energy on a cellular level, lower bloodsugar and treat type 2 diabetes, inhibit cancer cell growth, provide antivirals and even fight hiv, increase oxygen levels in blood, lower lactic acid in muscle fibers, contains adaptagens that help your body deal with stress, lowers cholesterol, increases focus and energy and the list goes on.

And now people think it will turn them into a zombie if they eat it. Great. Fantastic progress.

Rant: As a zombie fan I love 'The last of us'. As a mushroom fan I hate it.

The amount of mycophobia I have seen as a result of the show has been enormous towards one of the most potent medicinal mushrooms on the planet.

I dont blame the show, mycophobia is a problem that goes back hundreds of years, when christianity and colonization erased our ancestral knowledge and rejected anything that was even vaguely non-christian.

Mushrooms were poison, evil, magic, pagan and many other phobic words.

I'm going to start claiming all of Elon Musks stolen jokes as my own. At what point can I start telling people that Tesla was my idea?

Today I'm still mourning the loss of twitter. Its really sad, what its become. I had big plans, and twitter was a big part of them.

It's important in this moment to acknowledge that I am grateful to have found CoSo. It is the light in the darkness.

I have officially launched our new podcast "Zombie Book Club" where Leah and I talk about zombies. Please give it a listen on whatever podcast platform you choose. During this time it would help us a great deal if you gave it a listen, and a 5 star review would mean the world and help us launch this thing in style and find like minded listeners out there in the internets.

Links for all platforms found in my linktree https://linktr.ee/zombiebookclub

Thanks in advance everyone!

#podcast #zombies #books

I'm exhausted by how fucked the state of the world is. I wish I could just focus on one tragedy at a time. Having animal rights, social justice, the death of democracy, misinformation, economic collapse, racism, human rights, the fall of civilization and the impending climate apocalypse running though my head at all times is a lot to keep up with especially when so many are working to subvert all efforts to fix any of it.

I just want to get high and play video games.

I think I broke ChatGPT.

#openai #ai #chatgpt

This week I started designing a zombie apocalypse themed TTRPG game using spreadsheets to calculate the rules. The goal was to make something easy to jump into and have fun, with satisfying realism and technical aspects that the players dont need to know or even think about.

It has quickly gone from simple curiosity to brain melting obsession as I program each cell to auto calculate ballistics, skills, emotional states and health.

I think I need to stop

#ttrpg #roleplaying #zombies #gaming

The last of us ep3 fucked me up.

My wife asked me to draw her a bath

If money could buy happiness, Elon Musk wouldn't be such an asshole.