That's part of why I'm focusing on art. My PTSD hypervigilance has been in overdrive. That's not good for my health, and it's not going to make me someone others can go to for help.
@nopuppet_007 One of the things I learned in therapy was that I was criticizing myself when I recognized a trauma reaction. As if I was just supposed to chill once I knew what it was. I learned to accept that it's happening and focus on something I can control. So I can't save the world, but maybe I can finally sort through a box of stuff I keep saying I'm going to clean out. But I do have to put limits on it so I won't overwork myself. One box. Maybe two. Then rest.
@weirdfizz thank you so much for your words, they were what I needed to hear - I’m so grateful you took the time to reach across the ether💕. It was self-compassion I was running up against - thank you for that key - it helped immensely.😌
@weirdfizz ughhhh. Same. I’m stuck in ‘freeze’. I’ve always been aware of the cPTSD my childhood gifted🙄 me with, but I’ve always felt strong, competent, on top of things, even with a debilitating health issue.
But since the election, it’s like a never-ending panic-attack that has engaged that part of my psyche (the one where parents are unstable/threatening). I’m trying to shake it. I haven’t succeeded yet. But it’s intensely uncomfortable.