Holy shit I think I'm actually growing some self esteem.
@tippitiwichet If you don't mind me asking, how? Cause I got nothing🤷♀️
@Kaysymmetry @Ironworker229 Tons of mindfulness and this journal thing I've organized notes on de-escalation and street epistemology, etc. In part because I have massive social anxiety that can trigger my dystonia spasms, which is embarrassing and interrupts communication, and gets worse when I'm flustered with irritation at people being assholes. One of the people I wanted to communicate with was my emotionally abusive partner that I just split from after I earned a stay on the psych ward.
@Kaysymmetry @Ironworker229 Usually I can't look at our fights, I second guess myself too much, I got into the habit of not reading his replies and blocking him instead. He didn't get into my head this time. I wasn't as incoherent as I thought. I did not fall into a single trap. I'm getting stronger, and I realized I have a right to be proud about it.
@tippitiwichet It sounds like you should be proud of yourself for staying in control. I can only guess at the button-pushing that may be going on in those convo's. It's good that you're feeling stronger and more confident. @Kaysymmetry