I'm doing this shit all by myself. & I can't do it anymore today bc of my back - I'm now in a ton of pain, about 7/10 on the pain scale. & I'm doing it ALONE.
I am SO. FUCKING. TIRED. of doing shit like this alone.
I mean, the specifics of *this* particular evening are that I volunteered for this, so I can't really blame anyone for the situation I'm in. So that's not what my rant is about. It's more like it's a larger, decades-old pattern, that I do soooo much stuff alone that I either need help with, or wish that there was someone around who wanted to do this sort of stuff with me. Like cook a family dinner & put up some tinsel or some shit like that.
@Impious_Jade Well, don't overthink it and don't beat yourself up over it. You can't change everything overnight. But you might take small steps to get others to help when you need it. I understand the aloneness very well.
@Impious_Jade May be time to tell people that you have to have assistance. If they want an event to happen, they need to get involved.
@BillieBun Yeah. I honestly think that some of this is that nobody really cares that much but me about these get-togethers. Or maybe they care? But don't want to put in the labor. Or they can't.
@Impious_Jade Best way to find out is to make it clear that if people want some event they have to help. Maybe they won't care enough to help, but either way you shouldn't be expected to do everything. Maybe it hasn't occurred to them that this is too much for one person. Telling people they must chip in will be an adjustment for them, but you simply shouldn't have to do everything.
Been thinking a lot about emotional labor & boundaries & being taken for granted & how happy a looooooot of ppl are to just sit back & let *someone else* (me, for this particular sitch) do all the work.