Just want to point out...
I should not be awake at this time.
Have not had enough sleep.
For unknown reasons, I am awake at this time...the time in which I should be sleeping.

If I was a Care Bear, I'd be Grumpy Bear right now. An enchanting blend of "So cute!" and "Give the bear some space, sweetie!"

So, I'm drawing a picture of Azathoth...
I say to my husband, "You were supposed to keep me controlled and practical." (He snorts!) "Does illustrating Lovecraftian cosmic horror look controlled and practical?"

He looks at the page and nods. "It takes patience and skill to draw those lines."

He encourages my weirdness every chance he gets. 😍

My sister-in-law told me about the Star Tracker app last night. Now I keep sending screenshots of interested constellations. She knew what she was doing when she gave an #autistic person a new toy.

We can't see the green comet, but we did see Mars! And I got to stand outside with my husband and his sister and make jokes about Uranus being a big gas giant. And I saw the Great Bear! 💜 And I learned there's a dragon in the sky!

For anybody who is learning divination skills, or just needs the reminder, this week I wrote about why you don't have to be able to do readings all the time.

https://diydiv.substack.com/p/sometimes-you-need-a-break

I've knitted ten of the hexagons for my blanket! No idea how long it'll take me to knit all of them. Depending on what size I go with, I'll need somewhere between 300 and 1k. Ten is a good start!
#CoSoKnitting

It's been a rough winter, and that makes me kinda wary...but good things might be starting to come together! I want to believe this is a different kind of Spring starting. That good things will grow and bloom and bear fruit in our home.

It's a quarter to 4 in the morning and I'm crying because my hands won't open a bag of M&M's. I'm done for the day. Been done for the day for a couple of weeks. Might be done for the day for the next month.

I haven't done much colorwork, so I figured I can get some practice with these hexagons. The tension is different with multiple strands. That's why I need practice.

This one ended up looking like an Easter egg!
#CoSoKnitting

Have I mentioned how much I hate panic attacks? I H A T E panic attacks!

In other, actually related, news - Probably a good night to curl up under a blanket and knit!

A scrap yarm project can be transformative and healing. All those leftover yarns have stories. The gloves I knitted while sitting on the front porch. The shawl I knitted so that the knitting would help with winter depression. The hats I worked on during therapy sessions. The socks I was going to knit, but then life changed.

All of them becoming pieces of a blanket that will hold those stories.
#CoSoKnitting #CoSoMentalHealth

Knitted my first hexipuff today! Learned Judy's Magic Cast On for it, and Kitchener is my preferred way for finishing socks, so I'm grafting things to finish these, too.
#CoSoKnitting

Maybe I should take a break from agonizing about writing and finally start knitting those hexipuffs. I couldn't do a hexipuff blanket when that Beekeeper's Quilt pattern came out because I couldn't knit. Then I could knit, but...dishcloths! Hats! Socks! Scarves! More dishcloths!

A bajillion knitted hexagons sounds like a peaceful distraction. Productive fidgeting.
#CoSoKnitting

I think I've lost my hope about writing. It's not the process. It's my goals, my drive. The reasons I do it don't match up with... I can't even explain this. I've spent most of my life... No, that requires words. And explaining the obstacles gets me a bunch of, "Just do it anyway!" Which leaves me feeling like I failed to adequately explain what those obstacles are for me.

I'm going to go cry.
#CoSoWritingCommunity

Got a pair of wireless earbuds for listening to music while doing active things this year. I've never had wireless ones before. This is, like...this is some fancy, rich people, Star Trek stuff!

I am very easily impressed by little things.

Got an email that the Brooklyn Art Library is closing the Sketchbook Project. That's sad. But my book (My First Necronomicon) is listed as safe from the fire they had last year, and now I can request that it be returned to me.

You can still see it in their digital library.

https://www.sketchbookproject.com/library/S250136

Talking cats keep showing up in my dreams lately, and then last night it was a gryphon the size of a housecat who trusted me with their baby.

Gotta be honest...spending the night hanging out with a baby miniature gryphon inside a Paris museum isn't a bad experience at all.

It was a rough day, and that's actually good for testing just how committed I am to finding something to be thankful for each day.

Tonight, I'm thankful that I get to exist in the same universe as tardigrades. 💜