Is this "liminal"? I know liminal mostly refers to places in transition from one state to another, like a closed school waiting to open again, but this feeling I want to express is more stationary, closer to anxiety or detachment. Looking at the world and not being able to take from it cues if you are safe or not, because normal things have not always been safe, but you're fine and not actually afraid or anxious. You can't come to rest, but you are resting.