This is probably not worth saying, but my heart aches to express it somehow, so here it goes.
I feel so alone. My family has abandoned me, my wife treats me like I'm not even human, and I've never had any real friends. Hell, I post stuff like this here because I have nowhere else to turn. my soul hurts, and it has for a long time
@tiaugn sorry you feel this way
@tiaugn
You are not alone
We are here & you can say whatever you need to
And yes it is worth saying
We hear you 🤗
@tiaugn Hey, if it makes you feel better, there're people who have it just as bad if not worse.
No spouse, family they might see biyearly if lucky, and isolation so bad that at times they won't even notice they haven't spoken in days (and end up getting surprised by the sound of their own voice when they finally do).
One way I've seen it handled: just embrace the nihlism so hard shit doesn't hurt anymore, because it's all so tiny/pointless on a grand scale there's no reason to really sweat it.
@tiaugn The uplifting part of that is... if nothing matters, then there's really no reason not to try whatever the heck has a chance of pulling you out of the rut.
Try to remember that everything you feel is rooted in layers of assumptions, attitudes, perceptions, internalized statements, etc.
Trace those roots back, and then find ways to reshape them so you feel how you want/need to feel.
It's the psychology equivalent of doing brain surgery on yourself, but very much possible.
@tiaugn wishing you peace.
You are not alone. Keep breathing. We are here.
I'm so glad you are willing to come in here and tell us how you feel. That's a good sign!
Find peace within yourself first. You are perfect and you are worth it.
Your tribe is out there.
@tiaugn
It's worth saying if you feel strong enough to put it out here. ♥️
I'm so sorry for the pain you're feeling and though we're not there with you IRL, we are here now.