The fight for reality is not one that anyone can win. You will only lose yourself in doing so. You can only fight for yourself and the reality where you reside.

The fight for goodness and light cannot be won by brute force ... only by a slow accumulation of like-minded people who aren't driven by negativity (which dims light) but by positivity, honesty, and selfness.

Fighting however many MILLIONS of people who believe in darkness, selfishness, and evil is also a waste of energy.

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Eventually ... thanks to Aurelius, Seneca, Epictetus and others I learned to understand that my reality and everyone else's were different. That we existed on the same Earth but in very different realms of being. I came to understand that EVERYONE resided in their own reality and that we could never hope to understand one another no matter how hard we tried ... not completely anyway.

I learned to accept these facts and find peace in being alone and sane and good.

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Since I was in middle school I felt everyone around me existed in some alternative hell dimension where they seemed perfectly comfortable whereas I spent most of my days terrified of everyone around me. I went through a period in 7th and 8th grade that was more or less a nervous breakdown ... a mental break ... where I almost ended up in a "facility". I couldn't function, I was scared all the time, and everyone around me seemed like a beast, a monster, a devil ...

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I am used to being WAY OFF from everyone around me. I am used to being on the outs with everyone. I am used to being hated, disliked, getting death threats, being bullied, being mistreated, being abused ... I am used to feeling like I am the last sane person on the planet.

This has been my normal state of being for as long as I can remember ... "the only one" ... "alone" ... "hated" ... "misunderstood" ...

These words were my reality.

The world now is the way it's always been for me.

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All for the horrible sin of believing in a better, more positive, more healthy way of living and viewing the world.

All for valuing fairness, accountability, honesty, and authenticity in how I live and expecting the same in return from those who I allowed into my life.

All for choosing realism over delusion.

For all of those reasons I spent 50+ years of my life almost entirely alone aside from a literal handful of good people in my life.

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As I continued throughout my life it became normal for me to be completely alone in how I saw people and the world I moved through. I was always on the opposite side of almost everyone I knew in terms of the things I believed, the values I held, and the focus I had on balance, mental health, physical health, and spiritual positivity. I was always looked down on, mocked, sometimes hated, often bullied, and generally mistreated by my peers and adults alike throughout my whole life ...

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As I got older and more separate from my family, I was even more alone in the way I recalled my childhood. Because I was writing and keeping a detailed journal from the time I was 11, I wasn't susceptible to all the lies and gaslighting my family members tried to push. But I was still alone in my opinion of my parents and how they raised us. My brother grew to worship my father and "forget" most of the abuse and I seemed to be the only one who remembered and tried to hold them accountable.

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Growing up I was very much alone in how I thought, believed, and saw the world around me. I never agreed, never backed down, never believed the lies. I argued, I questioned, I fought back and got abused more often and with more force than my brother who obeyed and learned to agree.

I was always alone in my perspective of what family should be and of what a sibling should be. I was always alone in thinking that things should be fair and that love shouldn't be about control and submission.

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Despite the fact that my older brother and I grew up on my parent's house, we had very different experiences and realities mainly due to the fact that my father really didn't like women much and he didn't like women he didn't conform to his standards of what a woman should be, especially a Black woman. He preferred his son but proceeded to try and forcefully mold him into the version of what he felt a Black man should be through the same brutal, abusive, and manipulative tactics.

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The annual #Leonid #meteor shower peak is coming this weekend, and while it may not be the brightest and most spectacular meteor event of the year, it's still worth seeking out.

The 2024 Leonid shower has been active since Nov. 3 and is predicted to peak early on Nov. 18, with the best viewing late on Nov. 17 into the early hours of November 18.

𝘖𝘯𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘵, 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘢𝘯, 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘶𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥. 𝘏𝘪𝘭𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘤, 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 #𝘗𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘞𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵. - Taika Waititi

The first stunning issue of a brand-new miniseries from Giant Generator showcasing the first comics work by screenwriter and incredible talent Peter Warren. #TinCanSociety is a heartfelt and human look at the evolution of friendships across a lifetime, at disability and ableism, and the destructive power of fame.

#WhatImReading #comics

"A gripping tale of survival and resilience, #WeCalledThemGiants masterfully captures the enduring power of kindness and friendship in a shattered world.” —Marjorie Liu (Monstress)

A poignant, romantic, and devastating story of a young girl who wakes up to find her world has turned upside down. Lori is thrown into a world where she has to scrape by in the ruins of civilization, nearly starving, hiding from gangs when …

𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙞𝙫𝙚.

#KieronGillen #WhatImReading #comics

EEGs are used to diagnose and evaluate a number of things like: seizures, sleep disorders, Alzheimer's, different kinds of brain injuries etc.

Understanding how your brain and body work both separately and together is a huge component in unlocking many of the things that plague emotional well being.

Don't be a stranger to yourself mentally, physically, or spiritually.

The more you know and understand about yourself, the better you will be in all things and the better you will be for others.

My understanding of my whole self (mind, body, spirit) has been a lifelong focus and it is what has allowed me to not only survive a great deal of difficulty, but evolve myself into a person I can be proud of across the board.

Regulating emotions, focusing attention, and maximizing my productivity has helped me achieve the ability to manage several business early in my career as well as maintain my role as a teacher and a coach, and also just to have the balance I need for a positive life.

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I used a variety of neuro devices for measuring and monitoring purposes. In addition to for sleeping and meditating I also use other electroencephalography (EEG) devices for training my brain for focus.

I don't have focus problems despite being NT with ADHD. I have done enough work on my mind, environment, and knowing what I need for balance to be able to keep myself on track. However, the DATA is most valuable for long term analysis and knowing what works BEST for specific things.

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The official #AttackonTitan Orchestra is coming. Travelling around the world, the Beyond the Walls World Tour includes adrenaline-pumping tracks that send you back in time to earlier seasons, and the more recent releases, such as The Final Chapters.

Tickets are available globally on the 14th of November.

https://youtu.be/v0BrTJHoYC0

For venue information and links to purchase tickets, visit the event’s official website.

https://www.wildfaery.com/info/en/our-productions-en/aot

AoT was easily one of the best #anime of all time.

The architectural facade abandons complex decoration and shapes the space and facade through horizontal and vertical transportation systems. The verandahs and ramps on the facade encourage children to walk under sunshine and breathe fresh air, enjoy the landscape of Dishui Lake and the surrounding park, and feel nature. The children who participate in various activities on the verandahs and ramps form a dynamic architectural facade with the building.

The main functions of the ground floor are the experience area of science and technology, children's theatre and exhibition hall. The second to fifth floors arrange the extracurricular education space for children around the museum and the theater.

By flipping the traffic space from inside to outside, people inside can take good advantage of the urban landscape; classrooms and other functions are set inside so that teenagers can concentrate on studying in such a quiet environment.

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The Lingang Children's Palace aims to create a comfortable and interesting exploration space for kids and teenagers through architectural design, not only a place for weekend lessons.

I love this design for a few reasons but mainly because it reminds me of something you could build in #Minecraft using a texture mod that allows modern looking designs like ModernHD ❤️

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#architecture

77/90 is what I expected.

All bodies consider exercise to be stress from a data standpoint and the #Oura doesn't really differentiate between good stress and bad stress. It's just looking at your heart rate data. This is why you still need your own manual correlations and understanding of your own body. Numbers are just numbers without correlation.

My body is recovering from 2.5 hours of exercise yesterday so 77 is not bad for MY body.

#sleeptracking #healthtracking #HealthyHikikomori