I love Gillian Anderson and I know she went through something beyond Hell in her early career ... but I hate listening to her hate on XFiles and on herself in that role so much.
I understand WHY she does it and I understand what it means for her and why she kind of has to hate it and why she can't deeply appreciate it ... especially when it's been absolutely awful for her ... beyond awful from minute one.
I get tired of how much she hates it and how much she rags on it as if it has no value.
I tend to dislike results focused people. I don't get along with people who have a rigid viewpoint of what it means to succeed and a zero value outlook on how they came to be.
I am performance minded so I focus on everything that I did to get where I am. I see the PROCESS of all that as a part of several important steps of development. Life is a journey and success or failure is a result of many factors, some that are within our control and some that are not.
𝘗𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘤𝘶𝘴 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘴 𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵 𝘈 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵 𝘉 𝘪𝘴 𝘷𝘢𝘭𝘶𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘳𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴𝘯’𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 “𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴” 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦 𝘫𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘥𝘰𝘮. 𝘈𝘴 𝘢 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘶𝘭𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬, 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘭𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘶𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴. - Elaine Barlow
As much as Gillian likes to say she's "over it" and has come to "appreciate it" ... it's screamingly obvious that that's a lie.
She spends a chunk of time actually sitting there INSULTING HERSELF while she watches scenes from the pilot episode ... she talks about the entire process with so much scorn that her teeth are gnashing together even more than usual. Why does she continue to agree to even discuss it when she clearly hates it and herself at that time so much. For someone who suffered as much ABUSE as she suffered as a result of her role in that show for DECADES ... maybe she needs to heal instead of seethe.
"Watching this is so cringe" she says ...
THEN STOP AGREEING TO DO THIS STUFF.
If you can't heal, then stop torturing yourself with self inflicted abuse and admonishments about your early career.
You know what's also cringe, Gillian? Listening to you hate on yourself.
Didn't you get enough of OTHER PEOPLE doing that to you?
I'm starting to think that she hates being a role model for what she considers the absolute wrong reasons.
She wants to be a role model based on being a hardcore, brutal, workaholic, who can hate on herself as much as men use to love to ... or whatever she thinks a "strong woman" is in her mind.
When you start to take yourself so seriously and forget that your job is literally just cosplay and pretending all day, that's just sad.
It's ACTING. It's not curing cancer. It ain't that serious.