@homebird That's understandable. Truth be told, that's a good place to be in times like these. I pray that God will reveal himself to you in new ways. Look for Him. Scream at Him. Be utterly and viscerally real as you ask those questions. If God made us with the ability to question, it's healthy and right to do so. If God is real, you *will* receive assurance.
Meanwhile, be kind to yourself.
@stueytheround Thank you, Stuey ❤️