Just had a major meltdown and expressed stuff I haven't in years.
I said out loud that I could happily die.
I begged Eleanor for a reason to live.
I feel like life is just not worth the heartache.
Losing my bike feels like the last straw. It's my therapy and I am utterly broken.
Every time life seems to be improving something punches me in the gut. What with a disgusting rise in our rent and now this I can't cope.
I really want out 😭😭😭

@stueytheround oh mate I so sorry for you. If you ever wanna chat or some to talk at just throw me a DM.
Just thinking would writing some thoughts out in a song help? Pour some emotion into a style of song/music you wouldn't normally write?

@rych Songwriting will happen I think, but later. Right now, I'm coming down from a peak of anxiety and I need to sit with what happened for a while.
Suicidal ideation is not my standard operating practice and I'm still reeling from it. I'm safe and being able to talk here is helping make sense of things. Thank you. Having good people around, who care, makes so much difference.