I think tonight's going to be when the big cry comes.

I went through anger pretty quickly, and I was never in denial, but I've been waiting for the good full sad to come along.

I've lived with precarity my entire life, which also means holding my breath any time I get even a toehold in--knowing full well that the other shoe's always going to drop; it's just a matter of time.

In this case, I was bracing for, oh, a year while everyone was in denial. Now I get to let it out.

COME ON, BIG FEELS.