I am having all sorts of horrible intrusive thoughts, mostly revolving around my latest bandcamp release.
Catastrophising that people hate it, or me or both.
Thoughts of "why bother?" "They only listen out of pity" "Who would buy it anyway?"
"They probably think you're lazy re-releasing old stuff."

I dunno.

My guts are knotted up and I'm tense. Feeling sick. This hasn't happened in a long while. It's scary.

I'll ride it out and be ok. Acknowledging the feelings is step one.