@Nimthiriel I'm inside a lot 😂 and on a constant rotation of antihistamines

@Nimthiriel ours has been Extreme for ages too. And windy and cold.

Speaking of #anxiety, the official diagnoses was made of GAD and SAD for our #Audhd kiddo. 😥 I am hopeful that in the new year, now that it's official, we can make headway on learning how to alleviate it for him.

My partner and our daughter are checking out the Christmas lights around town before bed. #Audhd kiddo and I are curled up in bed because of irrational fear.

It's that irrational fear I hate and it hurts knowing that it has its grips on my son. And I'm sad because we miss out. I miss out. I feel guilty sometimes for feeling that but it's there.

But he's safe, and almost asleep and not #anxious because he's not in a situation that makes him so and that's what matters.

@DyDave my all time fav song

Snuggled up with #Audhd kiddo. He's at peace tonight, he's not fighting the sleep for once.

#autism #adhd #neurodiverse

@Jess yeah I can relate to that. There's not a lot of nice I want to say to Dad, so my mouth has been shut apart from daily trivialities when called for. I think I do that more for Mum than for me though. Keep her happy.

@silent_dystopia yes, I think I have somewhat grieved the loss of my dad as I knew him already. Maybe this is why I feel this way?

I just don't know how to feel about it. He's my dad but he also sucks. He wasn't a great father, if he could have pretended he wasn't a dad, he would have. He spoke frequently of how much he hated mum and wanted a divorce but couldn't afford it (& seeing her not cope over his withering away makes me angry from that). But I don't think I should feel nothing.

My dad is not a nice person, and on top of that, he fell down the Q-hole and every conspiracy train there was.

He's dying, slowly. He's still walking and talking but he's skin and bone, not eating, sleeping a lot. All the things I saw happen with my grandfolks in the months leading up to their own deaths. He has pulmonary fibrosis and was given 2-5 years, that was 3 years ago. He's forsaken treatments (evil pharma) and stopped seeing doctors earlier this year after a blood cancer scare.

@TrishaGreenie great choices!

Still not a morning person 🥱☕

@singlemaltgirl Some people just really are that selfish and it's harder to reserve judgement when you know more of the story.

Single parents have all of my admiration.

@singlemaltgirl no. It's hard to feel empathy for people like that.

Off to my first physio-ordered hydrotherapy appointment for my knee. I am not a morning person (and almost 7 years of having kids hasn't managed to change that). Unfortunately the tiredness isn't diminishing the #anxiety one feels at being in a swimsuit.

#selfcare #selfloathing

@Eviestorm 🥰