So this is what I'm doing with my life now, I guess. Got a desktop humidor and a cigar sampler. It holds 100 but has 43 at the moment, which is probably enough. 🤣

Two companies sent me those psych eval tests to go with my application. Based on previous feedback, I started applying for higher level positions and I guess this is part of it? I haven't done one of these in years.

Just gotta figure out what kind of coffee I'm going to make before I start editing this new video.

I'm trying to change my outlook and be more positive. I don't think it's working.

Kinda sounds like an exercise they're not telling us about. They're pretty passive about it.

So a customer has been breachified, we got to watch it through CrowdStrike in real-time. They just closed out all our notes and investigations as false positives, but yo something is taking screenshots on all your hosts and has access to your domain controller. Maaaaaybe take a looksie.

My documents I write for work have assaulted multiple senses, which is impressive because I don't know how I do that.

But the fun thing for my manager is trying to get all the similar thoughts grouped together. Like a shepherd with words.

I'll start to explain one thing, then go down a path to another thing, then circle back to the first thing, then start something completely new. No I can't stay on track and I refuse to.

Any time I write a report for a customer, I have to send it to my manager first to "jazz" it up with stuff like bullet points, and formatting, and colors.

Stuff like "here's the command I saw, here's why that's weird" and a whole lot of technical data absolutely no casual user would ever read.

But hey, that's life in the fast lane, behbey.

Alright, I'm up. My shift stars in 7 hours, which SHOULD be plenty of time to make some coffee, but we'll see how that goes.

And the rollercoaster continues: the third and final interviewee place, or whatever, just called and said they're giving me my team interview in 10 minutes.

So here we go. But no hopes this time around. I have none left to dash.

So I didn't get the job I was going for. I guess I messed up the team interview somehow. That's disappointing because I want to get out of SOCs, but there's still one interview left to do.

Oh and I finally beat the Ghostrunner expansion Project Hel.

I acknowledge I COULD be a better employee, but they could also be a better employer. 🤣😂

Installed DOSbox and got original vanilla Quake up and running. Everything works and it does full screen. I can even load the expansions.

That's what I did on my shift tonight. I probably should've been watching the SIEM instead, but oh well.

So I guess I won't be moving, at least not yet. Just renewed my lease. I hope this plan works out and is worth it because I just might get a job I've been trying to get for 17 years, but it's still in this stupid state.

Some of our customers are setting up their own security teams and I applied for one thinking it was kinda funny. They just got back and said they'd like to set up an interview.

Had one team interview Tuesday I feel really good about and getting another team interview for another place, then this came up.

Maybe good things are happening.

Somehow, in the year and a half I haven't uploaded anything to YouTube, I somehow gained 2 subscribers. Now that I'm working 12 hour overnight shifts I have time to make more videos.

Uploading the newest one now.

I don't like how if you're not suicidal, nobody cares about your depression. My doctor will ask what level I'm at, I'll say 9 or 10, she'll ask like 4 times if I'm having thoughts of hurting myself, I'll say no and she'll move right on to something else.

The only reason I'm seeing her if FOR depression, she should be better at this.

Install OS
Start update/upgrade, screen glitches and then I can't log back in so I hold the power button, upgrade still going on in the background
Now OS can't install anything, dpkg also wrekt
Now I'm reinstalling the OS

I started troubleshooting, but after 2 hours I was dicking with the video drivers and that's when I decided it would be easier/faster just to wipe it and start over.

I was in an interview and told the guy I've been doing a thing for 17 years but not as a job, just on the side (because for some reason nobody has ever hired me to do the thing, but I never gave up) and his response after telling him my entire history was "for this role we're looking for someone who has PROFESSIONAL experience" like bitch, fuck you and that company. Matter fact, go ahead and print out my resume and application, roll them up nice and tight and shove them up your ass

Watching true crime videos about horrific crimes. One video references the "all your base" meme from way back when. Start texting my sister quotes from the dialog.

And that's how I went from watching videos on abuse and cannibalism to funny music texts with my sister.