Every now and then life delivers a blow that momentarily breaks you. Horrible experiences are like amyloid plaque, they build up on you as you pass through this nutso life.
@MidnightRider Yes. Especially since reaching mid-life I sometimes feel a brutal despair—there so little we can do about the agonizing separations, the vulnerabilities…so many incomprehensible realities and unanswered questions. I find the world of my thoughts to be more real than the world around me. I’ll think: perhaps I’m crazy? But then I’m like: nobody notices…guess they are to? Then I let all that go and try to enjoy being alive. Very strange.
@WellWellWell3 @MidnightRider Yes it does. I live in Western NC and we are still recovering from Hurricane Helene. My family came through it relatively easily. We lost power and our frozen food but nothing more. Others lost everything. The damage is surreal.
But I don't feel the despair like you describe. I give those things over to God. I don't fully understand what happened and I ask the same why questions. We volunteered at our church to give out supplies. Helping others helps us.
@danielbsmith @MidnightRider I appreciate your balanced point of view and focus on what you can do Daniel. I teeter between extremes, self regulation a daily self-care Goal. I strive to hold fast to hope.
I also appreciate your disappointment MR. Your opinion is stark—I myself feel that at times.
There’s a lot of ideas. At the end of the day they don’t do much—the universe has “no sense of obligation.”. I wander about mentally, no real answers to be found.
@WellWellWell3 @MidnightRider Thank you for the kind words.
Such is the nature of faith. You're not going to be able to logic your way to God. There is no material proof of His existence to be found but I see His handiwork everywhere. There is a logic to it but you have to step out in faith through the veil of the unknown first. On the other side you will find Him waiting and all of life will make sense.