Ive needed help for so long and there just isn't. I know, the world is fucked up and everyone needs help, but some of us were really fucked up and needed help when things were relatively 'normal' but when you add a global trauma on top of all the other personal ones it feels like swimming with bodies tied to your feet. I've needed a win for so long and I'd hoped that this release would be it but its been the opposite. I can't even pull it down. I dont want to do music, art or anything anymore.

@lilyunsub
Noooooooooooooo. 💔
Your work is too intense, beautiful and important.
On its own it stands
But add the incredible window into your strength in self healing and it is miraculous, inspirational...all the words I don't know how to use...
This Armageddon will end. We need you to help us through it.💜

@damselfly59 I don't know how to. Its never felt like strength because its never felt like a choice. I had to write, or draw, or make music, something to be able to figure out what I'm feeling but I'm overwhelmed by them, not just my own but everyone around me, the grief, the anxiety, the rage. I feel like its crawling up my throat like burning acidic bile and its strangling me from the inside. I don't want to feel anymore.

@lilyunsub
I know that feeling. My plate is full these days too. I come here to fill my soul back up.
On the really hard days I put one foot in front of the other and go thru the motions.
I find one small beauty to shield me. A flower even helps. Cuz for some reason I am here to make a ripple.
You make tidal waves.
Rest awhile and find a foothold.