I have engaged in something extremely embarrassing, but I dunno, the effects of it seem to be good?

my username and user pic are too known so I will not say what it is. but, needless to say, I feel like my communications with everyone in my life is better for it as well as my own confidence in myself and my own patience for tolerating others.

It is SO EMBARRASSING, but
gosh. Fucking FUCKING gosh.