I still have a lot of misgivings about whether or not I'm autistic or not.

either I've had tonnes of hyperfixations over my life and thus that's why I'm good with words and my social scripts, math fascination, literal processing of instructions, etc, or I'm just arbitrarily weird and it is "normal"

I mean, I use words oddly so often, that I can only assume that it's an autistic-ism.

Kaiser is shit :)