First major holiday without my Dad. First major holiday without BOTH my parents.
I'm driving the struggle bus. Bummed. Sad. I don't want to go to my in-laws tomorrow, but if I say that to husband, it'll be a fight and he and the kids will go without me. He'd rather show up for them (can't let them down!) and be absent for me. "I'm fine." I'll tell everyone, as I find a quiet place to hide, until he decides he's ready to leave.