Sometimes I just lie here, needing to go to bed but not actually going to bed. This year I've realised that's probably yet another ADHD thing.

I'm still lying here not going to bed though...

If someone posts

"I'm 254 days sober," or "I'm so lonely right now,"

on Tumblr, you know someone's posting about some genuinely angsty feels

on Threads, you know someone's calculatedly manoeuvring for engagement so they can get monetised.

Sometimes being an introvert is like: "I really like you so much...I'm so glad you are in my life...I don't want to actually talk to you..."

The new Coldplay song sounds almost exactly as I imagined it would sound when I first saw the title.

#CoSoMusic

https://youtu.be/zKQ1ai_ymh0

Ok...I made it through thanks to x2 speed! Gah. Dislike Doctor romance in the first place so when they insist on including it they have to write it really well for me tolerate it. But this ep was boring & superficial. Why is the writing in this era 2/3 lame & 1/3r amazing?? At least if it was just totally lame I could write the whole thing off. 😂(Btw, I just write these notes for myself. If anyone actually glances at this and has been loving this entire RTD2 era, lucky you, continue enjoying.)

I haven't watched the latest Doctor Who episode because I keep stalling on RTD's personal fan fiction episode. I...will....get...through...the...cringe...

...hopefully.

Amazes me how many times families in EA comics and webnovels wait until the funeral to figure out who's going to take in the deceased's orphaned child/ren. Somehow someone manages to organise the whole funeral but forgets that minor detail...😆

So sick of being stuck in my YouTube recommendations bubble...but I don't know what to search for to get out of it...because I haven't discovered it exists yet...because I'm stuck in my YouTube recommendations bubble...

Me trying my hardest to stay away from Doctor Who online reviews and discussions (even though for the first time we had a decent episode that I was able to enjoy without any significant irks) because I just need to not make that community a habit. I find discussions about media interesting. I find "this is where the hivemind fell on this week's episode and we pity the intellect of anyone who didn't totally agree" to be totally unnecessary to my life.

I have the theme from Who's the Boss? stuck in my head.

I didn't even watch Who's the Boss? except occasionally in the ads of after-school Family Ties repeats...🙃

Doctor Who 73 Yards for 98% of the episode: Cool, intruguing, engaging, interesting, compelling.

Doctor Who 73 Yards for the last 2% of the episode: HUH????? What? How? Why? That's it? But...but...

Now I'll have to wade the murky waters of DW social media to hear the "real explanations" people have invented for the all the things that ending totally did not explain or make sense for....

Reaction immediately after finishing the second episode of the new Doctor Who series:

...

...omg what did I just watch???...

...😅

(Also, I'm still a little on the fence about the Doctor and companion, but my goodness Jinkx Monsoon was incredibly delicious. I live under a rock so this is my first encounter and I could become a fan based on that episode.)

Skin: ITCH ITCH
Hands: SCRATCH SCRATCH
Brain: STOP! STOP! STOOOOP!!!
Hands: [Freeze]
Hands: ...
Hands...scratchscratch...

I am hungry. And also sleepy. Each of these things prevents me from rectifying the other...

It's sort of amazing to be free of the constant "You're hopeless for not being able to cope with these everyday things that everyone else can do," self-narrative. 😭

Another thing I've realised far too recently is that I prob have inattentive-type ADHD (the type without the physical hyperactivity). I'm not in a position to get a formal diagnosis for now, so I'm aware this is just a self-diagnosis, but when I investigated this type of ADHD so so so many things clicked into place. Every day it feels like I notice more and more little ways of thinking, talking and acting that are influenced by my ADHD.

When I realised I'm ace-spec and saw the flag, it felt like it was meant to be. There really isn't any meaning to the fact that I've always liked to use purple hearts, I just like purple, but it's so cool that our flag features purple and not orange or something. ☺️💜

(Orange chosen as random example of not-purple, no hate for orange! 😂)

Geoguessr World Cup EMEA regional qualifiers this weekend! Lego Masters: Australia vs The Rest of the World starts Sunday! So much geeky excitement happening! 🤓

Instead of going to bed, I just had a twenty-minute, one-sided conversation with Hugh Jackman about the musical theatre roles I saw him perform back when he was starting out in Australia...

(With Imaginary Hugh Jackman.)