Today is a very difficult day, for very personal reasons.

I have been living with this situation for 7 + years. Today is the alleged end, but it isn't.

The pain of loss never disappears and there is no cure for the insanity of holding on to hope.

No matter how poor the odds of eventual positive outcomes, no matter how deeply I try to bury this & move forward, that hope is always there, triggered by unlikely events, & bowling me over with waves of despair on days of significance like today.