Before I say what I'm going to say, let me remind you I have OCD.
I have somehow managed to misplace two pillowcases that go with my favorite set of sheets. I have torn apart my room looking for these damn things. My daughter came downstairs to help me. I can't find them. I don't ever take them out of my room. I'm totally mystified, aggravated, and pissed off. Where the hell are my pillowcases? What did I do with them?
How can I lose pillowcases?
@Oma_Trisha I hate losing things.
I very often lose things, and it is extremely difficult for me to find them afterwards.
I have episodic amnesia.
These things are connected.
I've never heard of that. If you don't mind me asking, was it genetic, or did something happen to cause it?
I rarely lose things. Part of my OCD is keeping things where they belong. Exactly where they belong. It's annoying as hell when something that should be somewhere isn't there. They have to be here in my room. I just don't know where the hell 'here' is.
@Oma_Trisha It may be partly genetic, but it became very noticeable after a bad head injury.
Episodic amnesia is where you lack the ability to remember experiences, but your semantic memory (the ability to memorize specific information: facts, numbers, equations, &c) is intact.
If I take the time to verbalize what's happening, I can memorize my words the same way you'd memorize a poem (semantically) - but I'll never remember being there.
From my perspective, it's as if my past never happened.
Wow. That's gotta be unsettling. On bad days, when shit from the past won't leave me alone and torments me, it almost sounds attractive.