Who will we be after the people we've become to survive?

My first lessons in hate came from my parents. They fought dirty. When angry, they'd use your worst secrets & fears against you. Once you realize that an adult sees anger as an excuse to be cruel, you know their love is always conditional.

Ever since, I've always watched how people manage their anger.

But these days, there's so much trauma tied up in our cruelty. So it's an open question:

Will we stay this cruel, after we've survived?

@MLClark My entire life I’ve felt a calling to help and to serve, but there’s that old saying about the road to hell being paved with good intentions.

Perception does so much, when I was an evangelical christian, it was ingrained in me that all were going to burn, unless I did something about it, and here’s me with that call to help… so there was only one thing I could do… Tell them the brutal truth. It was hateful and ugly, and was one of the things that eventually got me to wake up.

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@MLClark But there was so much trauma and damage in my life by that time. I was so angry when I left the church, hurt and wounded. I was terribly abused in school, bullied relentlessly, hated and spit on.

There was an inner rage in me that manifested as self hatred, I binge ate, and there were moments where moments where it would all come bubbling out of me with hateful words. To say I was unskillful was an understatement. I didn’t know how to be, I was wounded, and I made so many mistakes.