A difficult decision:

More sticker making.

I think I’ve figured it out: that feeling of unease I have felt all day. As we are approaching the election & the news cycle is non-stop, and the more my fertility treatments aren’t working—delaying potential pregnancy. I’m just starting to feel really really apprehensive about the whole potential hypothetical probably-not-going-to-happen-so-why-am-I-like-this pregnancy. And this horrible thought: I do actually get pregnant and complications kill me, because GOP.

I am riddled with a sense of anxiety today that I can’t pinpoint to a single or even multiple causes. Just this unsettling feeling I can’t shake. 🫨

@SmirkingRaven 🥺😭

@Faay listen, I’m not going to be mad as long as there is gratuitous 🌶️ to make up for the nail biting anxiety and presumably devastating losses.

So can you even digest dairy anymore?

(I am asking you, #Cosonauts over 35.)

@Faay how ugly was my crying over a certain someone’s demise?

So. God. Damned. Ugly. 😭

Well daaaaaamn. I had put off reading Fourth Wing by Rebecca Yarros because of all the hype which I feared, at the time, to be overblown.

When I am wrong, I say I’m wrong.

What a ride! Downloaded book 2 to the kindle and shall stay up far too late (on a work night) reading it like a proper book dragon. 📖🐉

#cosobookclub #books #opencarrybooks

Made spaghetti tonight because it was the only unanimous choice (I don’t love spaghetti but I am a pick your battles kinda mom.) So midway through dinner, kiddo asks for some milk. I get up to get it. Two minutes later she says, “I am SO FULL. Can I be done?” I look in her bowl to see mostly spaghetti left. I look down in my bowl. Kid ate all her meatballs and all of mine while I was getting milk. Yeah. She can be done. 😳

@Graci repeat after me: “You get what you get and you don’t get upset/throw a fit.”

Last round for today.

Therapeutic sticker making

@LlamaMountainStudioArts in general, no. Not a hardship. But it was the only thing in reasonable walking distance from the courthouse during our break. It was an unexpected inconvenience.

I tried so hard to stay offline & unplugged from the Trump noise today. Alas, I was sent to work in the Coronary Care ICU & it seemed like all 8 patients were tuned into Fox News. And if that wasn’t bad enough, everyone was talking about it.

It took some time but I focused hard on my sexy dragon rider book on my kindle & got through my 8 hrs. Gonna chill with my fam now. Maybe play Hello Kitty Happiness Parade with the 6yo on Nintendo Switch and get back to my 🐉 book as soon as she’s asleep.

@LlamaMountainStudioArts I had jury duty last August and I tried to go to Starbucks. They didn’t even have a credit card machine. All mobile orders.

@LlamaMountainStudioArts I also fantasize about this but I am also aware of an increasingly difficult time, were I without one. So many establishments requiring mobile orders (cashless and card less,) restaurants and their QR codes to see a menu (not that I even do restaurants for sit down meals anymore) even the hospital that was once a hardliner on “leave your phone in your locker” has changed to a scan this QR code to take this survey, join this meeting/committee, send recognition.

@99reasons4truth The Safety Rooster 🐔