What I really hate about being fed up with myself (a mood) is that it does no good.
The world is filled with people who do so much harm.
There's so much harm that needs us leaning into proactive care and grace.
So when I can't snap out of unbridled fury with myself - for existing, for existing imperfectly, for having failed to fix parts of me that get so easily exploited to greater harm - it's just ego cranked to 11.
I need it down to a nice sedate 3 or 4 again. Working on that dial today. 🤞🏻
Thank you for saying so, Matt.
May you be as gentle with yourself as you can, in those moods - and may they pass as swiftly as they arise.
@MLClark Same. Yelling at or shaming myself does no good. It just makes me want to do stupid things to feel better. Which don't work.
@MLClark ah hmmm. Get Out of Your Own Way https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wx5WScxUWs8
@CanisPundit I actually have this written down, to remind myself that I’m my own greatest obstacle. Sometimes I just need to gtfo of my own way!
@Valkyrie_D @MLClark consider competence in learning. We begin in unconscious incompetence (we are unaware of our unknowing), conscious incompetence (we are aware we are doing the thing wrong), conscious competence (we are aware we are doing the thing “right”), and unconscious competence (just doing the thing without thinking about the thing, judging the quality, the chattering monkey mind interference).
That’s an important dial. So many bad combinations… But the good ones…yum!
@MLClark even prophetic consciousnesses need to give themselves a break! Hugs and take care of yourself.
@MLClark Been there, done that. Still do.