It's been a heck of a few years eh?
I remember when I thought I had a shot at investment - an agent and a new writing gig - only for the web venture to collapse due to poor corporate culture, and the agent to pass on taking three books to market, after the first failed.
I know some folks assume a lot about me from... my photo, I guess?
But as much as I put my work out in the hope of a connection, I a) routinely feel like a failure, & b) know I'm only decent at best in a sea of many better. /x
And "decent at best" but still alive and able to keep trying is better than the alternative, so that's okay.
But sometimes I definitely need to sit with my mediocrity awhile, and let the work wash over me (today, more admin tasks & reading, plus hopefully that overdue free Patreon) until I can figure out what direction to take next.
Melancholy Sunday! Going for a walk before the next round of screentime, but again--I have had more chances than most, so I'm not complaining.
Just regrouping. 👍🏻